things to get off my chest.
seeing you, i realized that i no longer have any feelings for you. friends? i suppose i could manage that. but only in the smallest way. i can’t bring myself to trust you after what i know now.
you have a problem! you’re my best friend, and i’m trying to help you without being hypocritical but i can’t. sigh.
i love you, you’ve been one of my closest friends for forever. but i can’t deal with you like this right now. you abandoned me, there’s a lack of trust that i’m trying hard to rebuild but i can’t get over it right now. maybe one day, but not now.
yes, i want to visit you. yes, i’m saving up the money for it. but i’m not okay with last minute planning. it works for you for your trips to california, but not for my trip to texas. i want definite plans early! i like planning things ahead, there’s less stress and less last minute cancelation. work with me here! com’on now. when you come to visit california, you can visit a bajillion people. i’m only going to texas for you. put me first for a little while yeah?
i don’t even know why you’re mad at me. i tried to remedy the situation, but you seem content with letting it go without being resolved. i made the effort to fix our relationship, i pretty much gave up trying after that. i’m obviously still here, but you’ve gotta make that effort first.
you’re cute, i’ll give you that. but beyond immature. you think you matured over winter break? you still seem the same to me. change my mind.
